Hello friend,
For years, I sat in church feeling like an outsider. I believed in GodâI always hadâbut I couldnât shake the feeling that I wasnât someone He wanted a relationship with. I didnât feel good enough, holy enough, or worthy enough. I wasnât proud of the choices Iâd made or the places my life had taken me, and I was sure that God didnât want me as I was.
So I kept my distance. I prayed sometimes, but even then, I felt like my words werenât reaching Him. In my heart, I believed that God loved people⌠but I didnât believe He loved me.
Then came the day when my world fell apart. Iâll never forget laying on my bathroom floor, tears streaming down my face, feeling so broken and completely alone. It felt like I had reached the end of myself, with no way out. But in that dark moment, something incredible happened. God showed up.
It wasnât in a loud or dramatic way, but in the quiet of my shattered heart, I felt His presence. It was as though He was whispering, Youâre not alone. Iâm here, and I love you. And for the first time, I understood that His love wasnât about what I deserved or what I could offer. His love was simply because of who He isâfaithful, forgiving, and full of grace.
Lamentations 3:22-23 says, âBecause of the Lordâs great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.â That verse became my lifeline. Every day, no matter how unworthy I felt, I could trust that His mercies were new. He didnât need me to clean up my mess before coming to HimâHe met me in it.
Friend, if youâve ever felt like I didâlike God couldnât possibly want you just as you areâI want you to know thatâs a lie. God doesnât need you to be perfect, and He doesnât ask you to have it all together. He meets you in your brokenness, in your fear, in your doubt, and He wraps you in His love.
Jesus didnât come for the perfect. He came for the weary, the burdened, the hurting. He came for you. And His love is constant, even on the days when you feel like you donât deserve it.
If youâre carrying the weight of unworthiness, I encourage you to lay it down at His feet. Let Him show you just how deeply loved you are. You donât have to strive to be enough because, through Him, you already are.
With love and a heart resting in His grace,
Kimberly